In my twenties I was terrified. I married young (18) had my first child when I was 20, second when I was 25, divorced when I was 26. I felt so alone and scared...I had no idea what I was doing. I don't think I was ready to be a grown up.
In my thirties I went back and forth between making dumb choices and making smart choices. It was all pretty much a blur. I was insecure, unsure of myself as a parent and a person. I was a good mom, though. I will give myself that.
My forties were much better (I think I finally understood what being a grown up was about). Although I endured some great tragedies and hardships during that time, I learned and grew. I made better choices for my life. I was still a little unsure of myself, but I was realizing that I was far more capable than I had given myself credit for. I started seriously writing and was able to do what I had always dreamed...complete not just one novel, but a series!!
I am only two years into my 50's but I have to say I am really liking this age! I am self-confident (in a good way), I am poised, composed, peaceful, yet I still have my goofy side. I went from terrified to do anything, to a person who will not take no for an answer until I know that there is truly no way to make it happen.
I don't know what the future holds for me, but I do know that the Lord is true and faithful. He took a scared, insecure little girl and grew her into a mature, joyful woman. It only took 30 years!! And He isn't finished with me yet. I can't wait to see what happens next!
Love this post, SR. I'm very much like you. I love my 40's because I finally feel confident in being who I am. We have such a similar life path! I'm only 5 years behind you so am incredibly encouraged to hear that the 50's are fabulous. Yay! Honestly? You really brightened my day with that little note.
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As a woman in her almost late 50s, I can also relate. I started late and I still worry at times that I'll not get all my dreams realized. But the confidence and depth of faith are there to carry me through.
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Jan Cline
Angela, you brightened my day as well!
ReplyDeleteJan, I feel the same way. I spent so many years trying to survive, it's wonderful to finally be 'living'! Maturity is a funny thing, isn't it? I always thought I didn't want to grow up, but now that I have I love it!
Sharon
Great post! I am also loving my fifties and the positive changes this decade is bringing.
ReplyDeleteIt's a great time, ladies! After raising children, cleaning house, working, paying bills, struggling, we get blessed with the 50's...and grandkids!!
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